Oh good grief what time is it?! Cruz has just spent the week with my GOOD sister and i hear he was waking up at 7.30am most mornings.....5.30am Cruza really what is going on ?LOL! Cruz is in and out of the house playing with the dog while Taj is still passed out...oh how i wish i was still doing the same YAWN!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
life changing
This morning i was woken at 5am to the sound of my 22month old nephew who is in my care, singing at the top of his voice....a sweet happy song, i couldn't understand a word but is was a happy song. :)
My Nephews name is Cruz and he came to live with me and my little family when he was 6months old, 22nd July 08 he moved in. He was born addicted to methadone and his mum turned back to drugs (prescription drugs) after he was born mainly due to guilt over his condition after being born and also just because she had the urge i guess. He was removed from his mum and put into foster care for 30 painful days, painful because he wasn't with his family.....we thought he would just be placed with a family member but this wasn't the case. We had to wait the 30 days out and in that time my husband and i applied for kinship ( a form of fostering but within the family...hence KIN).
It has been one crazy road this past 16months, Cruz came to live with us on the Tuesday and my husband left to work interstate the very next day. I found this confronting a he was 6months he was set in his ways and we both had to figure one another out plus make sure my own son was adjusting to the changes that had happen within our home.
16months later we are still getting there, there is frustration as Cruz still isn't communicating well with us, he can understand what we say and follows all directions BUT still is only saying a small handful of words. He screams in frustration goes stiff, gets up on his toes and totally loses it an then in turn i lose it, in the beginning there were lost and lost of tears (from me mainly) but I'm getting there......i complain a lot, the kids are a handful, i cant cope, why is this happening to me...i asked this the other day after Cruz's mum told be i was selfish because i don't take the time to talk with her, this is because i don't have time for her, i don't agree with her way of life although on the road to recovery it has taken way longer that i anticipated it would take for her to get on her feet. But in saying that Cruz is welcome to live with us for the rest of his life.
This morning after being woken by this happy little tune i sat in front of the computer and read an incredible blog by a very courageous woman (NIENIE DIALOGUES) very inspiring and a very beautiful woman, went to work and had a conversation with my 23 year old work mate who is being treated for the second time for bowl cancer. She is truly amazing she doesn't let it get her down and i have never heard her complain, she always has a smile on her face and upbeat and in contrast to that i was told by my boss of his wife's cousin who hung himself in is back yard last week because he has a drinking problem his wife threatened quit drinking or I'm leaving, so he killed himself when all he had to do was stop drinking. His wife found him hanging from a tree in the yard and it wasn't till one of his 3 small children was having counseling did they find that she had gone out to the yard that morning and found her dad, her words to the councilor where...Daddy's face scared me so i went back to bed. So, so sad!!!!
Why is it that the people that have choices either opt out of life by the way of drugs or suicide???? When there are others out there like my co-worker or Nienie who don't have a choice they have to face the consequences and they just deal with it....life is so amazing and filled with wonder and after this morning of singing and sad stories and inspiring people i have decided to take life as it comes and quit complaining.....so if anyone is bothered to a make it to the end of my first blog i give you permission to blast me if i ever complain unnecessarily again....;)
Until next time guys....peace!
My Nephews name is Cruz and he came to live with me and my little family when he was 6months old, 22nd July 08 he moved in. He was born addicted to methadone and his mum turned back to drugs (prescription drugs) after he was born mainly due to guilt over his condition after being born and also just because she had the urge i guess. He was removed from his mum and put into foster care for 30 painful days, painful because he wasn't with his family.....we thought he would just be placed with a family member but this wasn't the case. We had to wait the 30 days out and in that time my husband and i applied for kinship ( a form of fostering but within the family...hence KIN).
It has been one crazy road this past 16months, Cruz came to live with us on the Tuesday and my husband left to work interstate the very next day. I found this confronting a he was 6months he was set in his ways and we both had to figure one another out plus make sure my own son was adjusting to the changes that had happen within our home.
16months later we are still getting there, there is frustration as Cruz still isn't communicating well with us, he can understand what we say and follows all directions BUT still is only saying a small handful of words. He screams in frustration goes stiff, gets up on his toes and totally loses it an then in turn i lose it, in the beginning there were lost and lost of tears (from me mainly) but I'm getting there......i complain a lot, the kids are a handful, i cant cope, why is this happening to me...i asked this the other day after Cruz's mum told be i was selfish because i don't take the time to talk with her, this is because i don't have time for her, i don't agree with her way of life although on the road to recovery it has taken way longer that i anticipated it would take for her to get on her feet. But in saying that Cruz is welcome to live with us for the rest of his life.
This morning after being woken by this happy little tune i sat in front of the computer and read an incredible blog by a very courageous woman (NIENIE DIALOGUES) very inspiring and a very beautiful woman, went to work and had a conversation with my 23 year old work mate who is being treated for the second time for bowl cancer. She is truly amazing she doesn't let it get her down and i have never heard her complain, she always has a smile on her face and upbeat and in contrast to that i was told by my boss of his wife's cousin who hung himself in is back yard last week because he has a drinking problem his wife threatened quit drinking or I'm leaving, so he killed himself when all he had to do was stop drinking. His wife found him hanging from a tree in the yard and it wasn't till one of his 3 small children was having counseling did they find that she had gone out to the yard that morning and found her dad, her words to the councilor where...Daddy's face scared me so i went back to bed. So, so sad!!!!
Why is it that the people that have choices either opt out of life by the way of drugs or suicide???? When there are others out there like my co-worker or Nienie who don't have a choice they have to face the consequences and they just deal with it....life is so amazing and filled with wonder and after this morning of singing and sad stories and inspiring people i have decided to take life as it comes and quit complaining.....so if anyone is bothered to a make it to the end of my first blog i give you permission to blast me if i ever complain unnecessarily again....;)
Until next time guys....peace!
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