sometimes i think, im going crazy! do you ever think like that? i could worry myself for no good reason into a state of panic, i guess because my biggest fear is to GO CRAZY, it terrifies me!
i know life can me so easy if you just let it be, but instead i put up obstacles for myself and hinder any kind of chance of just living the dream....cause in fact when i stop all my senseless worry for 5 seconds i can see that "i am living my dream".
its 9am and im still lying in bed with my son, im blogging and he's watching avatar, im under no pressure to get up and clean cook or whatever i should be doing as a part time stay at home mum, my husband isn't abusive in any way he never tells me NO, our son is AWESOME i am truly bless, we own our home, our car, we all have our health and really want for nothing.....its like i get bored and have to make a drama for myself, i dont know why i do this is exhausting analysing everything, thinking have i changed, i dont feel so happy go lucky this week dose this me insanity is creeping in??? honestly i have had a head ache for days and feel like i haven't slept and now re-reading this blog it just seems like one crazy senseless rant and why act like a sitting duck waiting for it to come creeping in when it most probably wont, there is more chance of getting up and having the most brilliant day of my life then slipping in to the insanity abyss that im so afraid of and give all my energy to.......im starting to sound more like a bored house wife that just needs to get a life!!!!
i might go and start enjoying my life! x
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